This week was finally the last before spring break. Truly it felt like a year. Time flies by when your having fun. I wasn’t having fun. We went to the museum of contemporary art to get our prototypes of what we are exhibiting critiqued. The advice we got was helpful, but oh my goodness sitting through it felt like an eternity, but in the end it really made our final products seem like more of a reality. We also had festival del sol that week which meant still no breaks even though we were just fundraising mainly. Nuvia and Ms. Hood-Esparza expected us to work even harder during the last so we really did. Which was kinda hard sometimes when we’d see other teams havin barbecues n stuff… while we were grinding on work. Even though the work seems like a lot sometimes, i know it will probably build a work load tolerance for me in the long run. To top it all off, i had the most exausting week so I was planning just to not come to school on friday, it being a minimum day and all. BUT Ms. Nuvia planned a whole socratic seminar that day. Thats the one reason I went to school. Good one Nuvia, good one… After school I went straight home and slept for hoursssss, so exciting. So far im halfway done with my spring break and all I can say is that it has been pretty basic and average. I just sleep work and repeat. I havent done anything too fun, not even go to the beach!! So disappointing. I have my first meeting with my internship mentor on the Monday before we go back to school and Im sooo excited!!! I get to shadow her for the day and see what my internship will look like day by day. Ill update on how it goes...
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I'm on my last week before break and oh am I counting down the days. I really need some time to myself, to gather everything together because in all honesty i've been a mess. I have a lot of things situated though, especially since my first post. The whole SAT fiasco is passed and I have an internship in the works and I have some personal relationships figured out. This is all good news for me, and really lifted a lot off my shoulders. Although we still have a decent work load, I am able to see some light at the end of the tunnel kind of. All this light leads to is more stress. I'm still trying to figure myself out, I'm definitely a different person than I was when I started the year off which is unexpected. So, I feel as though this break will give me time to reflect in a sense, who knows if that will end up happening. Although, something that is really on my mind are mukbangs and seafood boils. Mmmmm oh myyyy. I watch mukbangs(eating shows) and honestly sometimes ASMR on the daily, strictly seafood boils. At all times of the day, all, i'm watching one right now. They honestly relax me and re ficus me, so if I get caught on why phone this is what I'm doing. So, to kick off my break my friends (shayne and Bibi) are planning to splurge out and have a giant feast and some new crab place in eastlake. I'm so excited. I'm actually addicted to mukbangs, but I'm okay with it. So I'm excited to feed this built up craving of seafood. The deadlines for FCA camp are before spring break, but gosh I'm so excited. I'll definitely mention this again in another post but I loved it. I'm not the most religious person but that changed me, for a week. But this year, my last, I signed up for surfing! Im gonna learn how to surf! So excitingg!!! I'm gonna be so tan this summer, I can't wait.
Well it has been probably one of the most stressful weeks of my life. In my last blog post I mentioned that I procrastinated all of my priorities and now, this week I am facing the repercussions. Throughout this entire past week I physically felt the weight of tension sitting on my shoulders. All week. There were multiple contributing factors to this though, academically and socially. It was the week of my SAT! Funny story about that… I missed it. I missed my SAT. All week I have been mentally preparing myself. I was prepared and felt confident in myself. So let me put you in my POV on March 9, 2019. First of all I went to sleep at around 9. 9 pm!! That's the earliest I had willingly fallen asleep in about 2 years. Not only did I sleep at an amazing time, but I took of my makeup! I was truly, a changed woman.. I don't think I had ever woken up this early in all my years, honestly. So not only did I wake up but I woke up by myself, before my alarm. I'm excited and truly energized as I shower. I get out andam ready by about 7:10. Easy, now all I had to do was print my admission ticket I go to print and what?! There's no paper. I almost fainted. I recollected myself and try to fumble around to see if I can find anything. No. Therefore, thank god, I was texting a friend of mine while I was getting ready. For some strange reason he was awake. He said he would print my admission tickets but I just needed to send him the files so I can just pick it up FAST. I look at the time! 7:32. I haven't eaten, I can't find my calculator and my ticket was printed. Shiiiiiit!!! I try to log into my computer but it’s saying my passwords wrong? I broke my flipping computer. So he tells me to come and do it from his computer. I practically teleported to his house, no joke. The clock reads 7:45. Oh my... My guardian angel gives me his calculator and eventually ends up having to print from inside his house after many complications of printing attempts in my car. 7:55. I gave up hope at that point,I said my thank yous but my friend I failed. He explained how to use the calculator, I laughed”I'm not taking it” he told me “You're not leaving that room without finishing that test”. I felt this surge of hope and I floored my car and again I seriously teleported to make it to my school in under 5 minutes. I got to the door at 8:02 scrambling and I was too late the doors were sealed and locked. I was devastated, defeated. I dragged myselfinto my car. I ugly cried, hard. All of the stress and tension was released in a way. Although this was pretty disappointing in the moment, there's always to solutions to most problems, Im retaking it in may:)
Theres is a lot of built up pressure sitting on my shoulders throughout this week . It's a week before SATs, I still don't have a secured internship, I have some relationship conflict I’m avoiding and I feel like I have a crap ton of homework. It's currently 5am and I have been falling in and out of doing homework and taking short naps all night. I feel as though these current things that are stressing me out could be resolved with more time. Time I don't have. Instead of actually confronting these dilemmas, what do I do instead? I dye my hair. I spend my time going to the store buying hair dye and dying my hair the day before I have all of my incomplete work due. So here I am now doing my homework at the last possible seconds. It’s not really fair for me to complain because I left all of my priorities to the last minute. But I feel like this works best for me in an odd way. As I work through the early hours of the morning I feel an amazing perseverance that motivates me to complete my work. I know all that Im stressing over will be worth it once I deal with them, but the hardest part is actually starting that process. Which then leads me to complete them in the last hours to conquer them. Although it's not healthiest way of completing my work, it’s what's currently working for me and my packed schedule. I'm just really excited to enjoy my spring break. I feel as though this break will really give me much needed time to focus and recenter myself, I've noticed that I have been neglecting this personal necessity and I can definitely notice. I really hope to gain the skill of balancing my personal priorities with my student priorities.
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